EuGene

Subject: Thank You for the invitation


> Dear Eugene,
> Thank you for the invitation, maybe someday I will be in that part of the world! and of course, if u are ever around here, pls visit me ...
>
> I have been wanting to write to you for some days now, but soemhow could not get around to do it...
> I was thinking yesterday of how thankful I was to get your guidance for meditation. It really has made a difference i think, it has helped to to lessen stress which accumulates tahnks to work...and i look forward to doing it. Which is not to say it has become very easy, but improvement has certainly happened. another thing i wantd to tell you that an article of
> mine got recently printed in a newspaper,a first for me..i was quite delighted when it happened!!
> thats it for now, more later
>
> How r you doing?
> Take care, Sowmya

Hi Sowmya,

It was so nice to hear from you, I was really missing you and wondering how everything was going. I`m so glad that your Mediation is coming along and that you are beginning to experience some of its benefits one of which is certainly reducing built up stress. I`m excited to hear of your Newspaper article, please tell me a bit more about it.

Things are quite busy with my Web Site, more and more people are contacting me via email and my visits per month are steadily increasing. I feel so good that the World is able to gain something by my WISDOM(77) and Insight. There is much more to happen of course, it is prophesied within DAWN 1999.

And how about yourself, is your job feeling better to you now that you have been there for a bit?

Please do come and visit, you can stay here with us for the length of your stay and the experience would be truly irreplaceable.

I realize you are very busy but email me whenever you able, even if it is just a short hello to tell me how you are feeling. Perhaps once things settle for you we can Communicate with one another more frequently because I know this is where your development of Self and of Spirit will blossom.

Love is Eternal,
EuGene

> Dear Eugene,
> I know i must write more & i also want to, so will try harder to drop in a line atlest once in 2 days.
>
> My meditation is great...i do it however tired i am, i think that is a great achievement for me coz i am mangeing to discipline my self to do it, in fact as i told u i look foward to do it. my concentration comes & goes during it. but on the whole the struggle has lessened, i hope it will continue to improve.
> Apropos, my newspaper article, I wrote in a review of the classic, Pride & prejudice by Jane Austen to a city newspaper, which was published in its Sunday Magazine section. i wasnt paid for it as it was for an interactive column , but still it was a great thrill. im not finding time to write more, which i regret. i am trying to set aside some time ...
> I have been thinking of what you refer to as my Be energy....i still can't really think of any specific ambition from my childhood. For whatever reasons, i always liked the languages more than science or maths. only other thing which caught my fancy later on was commerce/accounting/finance. I was pretty good at it but it still wasnt my passion. I did specialize in
> Finance in my MBA, but landed a job in research. so i kind of lost my way..... im not so sure abt finance being my passion coz inspite of not being in that field for 2-3 yrs, i dont exactly miss it acutely, just a kind of wistful longing, which anyway is not a good basis to pursue it on...
> I have so been thinking of the publishing field, i infact have a test for a copy editor job at a publishing company today -- im just checking it out.
>
> my family encourages me but of course is not exactly thrilled abt it, coz it doesnt "fit" my qualifications & also in
monetary terms. they want the best for me, i know that..but ......
> i do so hope i settle down somehow, this is not a nice place to be in life!!!!!
>
> its great to hear that more people are benefitting from your guidance, we do need it.. but all this must be streching you to the limits...do take care of yourself...
>
> i do hope i mange to come North America sometime..i do so want to see the Niagra Falls! & i would love to visit you...lets see whether it happens!!

> thats it for now,
> ciao sowmya

Thank You Somya,

Yes indeed I am thankful that you took the time to write me, I do not want to pressure you in any way but I know the more frequent contact would be good for you. I am happy to hear your Meditation is going better, are you able to repeat your Mantra without forcing it whatsoever, and when you find yourself in thought are you able to easily bring yourself back to your
Mantra? As well do you find yourself going deeper into relaxation as time goes on within your Meditation and in particular as you continue returning to your Mantra once you realize you are in thought? A few questions here but I want to make sure you are going to get the maximum from your Meditation by ensuring you are doing it perfectly well. By now I assume you are experiencing certain intuitive visual images happening and perhaps sounds that are stored in deeper aspects of your memory as you move into deeper levels of mind. One last question, when you are very tired do you at times fall asleep while Meditating? Self Empowering Meditation™ is indeed empowering of the Self, this inspired me to thus name it such. At times if
you are very tense you may discover it is a little bit more difficult to release yourself of thought, that is because when we are tense our thoughts are very captivating. We are in a strange way attempting to find a solution to our discomforting tension/stress hence we are really heavy in thought. Also it is normal if you are very tired that on occasion you may actually
fall asleep during your Meditation. This happens because as you begin to relax and move into deeper levels of Mind the need for sleep takes precedence and thus you fall asleep. Do not let this bother if it does happen, it is an indication that your body is in need of sleep most of all, however this should not happen regularly.

I`m really happy for your article being published, I never read the book but I watched the movie, I really enjoyed it. It is difficult for me to say at this point in time whether this editorial job might be more personally rewarding to you, from what you have told me it certainly could be because of your love of language. Whatever choice you make I want you to know that I will support you throughout. I would like it very much if you were able to visit, you could stay with us however long you like. It may be an
opportunity for you to really get in touch with yourself and discover a new and more satisfying path in Life.

I can certainly understand when you say " this is not a nice place to be in life!!!!!", I was there and it almost cost me my Life.

I truly wish you the best in Life and I will be here in whatever way you need me to the fullest extent possible. My heart is with you,

Sincerely Yours,
EuGene

Subject: Many apologies


> Dear Eugene,
> I have again been unable to send frequent mails to you, I think abt u everyday, but not able to write as i feel just few lines arent enough...i require to put in more thought & time!
> i had an urgent deadline to meet, hence..lack of time.. stress is building up...I am settling into the job, but it is difficult working outside your comfort zone...i will stay around for maybe 5-6mnths here, & meantime think up of what next to do!

> I meditate regularly, i still find myself in thought frequently but it is becoming easier for me to bring myself back with the mantra. I find myself going to deep meditational state for extremely short periods of time- 5-10mins, before finding myself out of it. that is i am unable to sustain it. is that normal? i also find it very difficult to do it when i am tense, i give up coz it simply doenst happen. I think im having problems of concentration... I have not yet ever fallen asleep during my meditation. One more thing is i am unsure of how i should wrap up my session... No smooth sailing yet for me..
>
> How are you/family doing? It must be a special time
> with Christmas around the corner..
>
> Take care, Sowmya

Hi Sowmya,

Dear Sowmya you certainly need not apologize, I understand. Yes it is normal to go into a deep state of meditation for just a short period of time, this is because you are still in the earlier stages of learning Meditation. I`m glad it has become easier for you to go back to your Mantra once you realize you are in thought, this is very good indeed. As far when you are really
tense I know it can be difficult to get into Meditation because your Mind is just racing about looking for a way out of its tension. The problem is not one of concentration but rather one of thought being so strong that you have trouble breaking free of it. Just keep repeating your Mantra and you may discover that at times even under stress you will slip away from thought within your Meditation and as you do you will experience a reduction in stress. Meditation calms the body through calming the Mind. There is no specific way to wrap up your session, once you have done your 20 to 30 minutes you simply open your eyes, look around and do as you like.

I`m glad you are thinking of me for I do think of you. I want so much for you to experience more Happiness and greater Fulfillment in Life. Actually Happiness comes from Fulfillment in Life. Yes Christmas can be exciting, I finally can appreciate Christmas. It took me a long while to recover from Christmas Eve of 1986. This is when I was locked out of my Home and did
not spend Christmas in the new Home I had just bought two months prior. I roamed about on the streets and ended up sleeping in the run down basement at my parents place. Christmas Eve was the beginning of the two most horrific years imaginable for me. The suffering was so very intense, extreme pain and suffering and no answers. Amazingly just when I thought that I will never get out of the vicious cycle I was in all was given to me in the Instantaneous Spiritual COMMUNICATION(48) of the evening of Aug. 25, 1988. This was the turning point for me, and this was the Birth of Thee Trinity Creation. I can now enjoy Christmas once again, I do not get excited about it, in fact I am not an excitable person; I simply enjoy being home with my new family. My wife is very young (22 yrs of age) but quite mature, she is expecting to give birth to our second son sometime in January. There is a Light that will shine on you Sowmya, I know it will but I cannot say when. Stay with me and when things get a little less busy for you we can explore all to a greater depth.

I do care you Sowmya, I know you are a Wonderful person and you deserve Fulfillment in Life, you will have it one day. I will be here for you always.

I truly do wish you a very Merry Christmas and I hope to speak with you many times before then. I know I can be of tremendous worth to you and to you discovering a Grander path in Life. I will help you be all that you should be.

Love for you,
EuGene

> Dear Eugene,
> I am sitting back after office hours to wrap up work, & then thought of also dropping you a line.. I hope I am progresing in path of meditation ...it is sometimes frustating when i find myself unable to focus..you are so right when you say that "the
> thought" is too strong ...making it difficult for me to break away frm the cycle.. i hope it will become easier i practise more..!
> I was thinking of how controlling thought otherwise is also so tough..the effort it takes to not think of topics, ridiculous worries etc in daily life, If only I could command my mind not to think them!!!but never happens ealily---that also takes practise i guess..
> I was also wondering about something you had mentioned in an earlier mail...of all creations of the world going back to the Creator..could you tell me more about it..? for humans would you be meaning salvation/liberation?
> I often keep thinking about WHY? why are we all here..? what the purpose for all this..for my petty struggles..?  In Hindu philosophy as far as i know, all this world & everything that happnens in it is "leela" or "maya" - basically Gods' illusion--It has always been quite puzzling to me..
> (You must tell me how much you know about the Hindu religion, i know you have practised TM, so i am sure you would be quite knowledgeable...so i dont want to hold forth using my paltry knowledge!!!!)
>
> Anyway hope i hvnt bored you with my "end of day" ravings! You must be eagrly awaiting you son's arrival in Jan..
> Thank you for sharing more about yourself..
> I was quite affected by what you had mentioned of your past experinces..it must hv been so tough..
>
> Pls take care,
> I will try to write in more frequently...
> Ciao, Sowmya

Hi my Dear Sowmya,

To begin with Meditation can be a bit "frustrating" to learn, often that will of greatest value to one`s well being is the most challenging, this is because it is within challenge that the Human has made his greatest leaps forward. The ENERGY(99) of LIFE(15) flows through each and every one of us and within that ENERGY(99) is the evolution of Creation itself. Creation is
PERFECTION(54) for that which is Created from PERFECTION(54) must itself be PERFECTION(54). THE CREATOR(46) is PERFECTION(54) hence his Creation is PERFECTION(54). However because we are still infants in our Human development we cannot see the larger picture that underlies LIFE(15), therefore when something does not move in our favor, or within the limits of our understanding we see it as flawed, in fact we often believe to have a better way than THE CREATOR(46) Himself. There is no better way to Creation itself, it is PERFECTION(54) but there is a better way within the World of our Personhood. The better way of course is to live our LIFE(15) {as we know and understand it} in greater alignment with the total Person that we are. When the Person we are is operating at a very high level of our potential of Being we feel so good about our self and about LIFE(15) in general. The external World of Creation has been matched to our inner World of Being. The reason you have such questions as "I often keep thinking about WHY? why are we all here..? what the purpose for all this..for my petty struggles..?". is because you are not as a Person in alignment with the World about you, and hence deep within yourself you suffer from lack of FULFILLMENT(12). In order to align yourself with the World about you, and to align the World about with yourself there are two elements that need to be addressed, and within each of these elements many many sub-elements.  TRUTH(33) and WISDOM(77) in LIFE(15) are so rare. It is very easy to access heightened levels of KNOWLEDGE(0) but very difficult to develop LIFE(15) WISDOM(77) and to live the TRUTH(33). So you see what we have been talking of and attempting to do since we have come together is two-fold, these two elements are as well both of the internal and external. At an internal level Meditation and our time together is helping you come to Know your True and Full self which is the first internal step in the development of your Full self. Secondly we have been looking at external factors in an attempt to shift them in time so that they may be better suited to the Total Person you are. You can readily see that it takes time for the True development of the Person to take place because both internal and external conditions need to be looked at and within each of these there are many factors that need to be addressed. You are in the process Sowmya of moving beyond mere KNOWLEDGE(0) to that of WISDOM(77). WISDOM(77), a little at a time yields a time yields a lot over time. If you attempt to resolve those questions you have at a logical level you will be at it for the rest of your LIFE(15) and still not have an answer, however once you are able to live FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(15) the answer is given. The reason you are troubled with " the effort it takes to not think of topics, ridiculous worries etc in daily life" is because of this lack of FULFILLMENT(12) within yourself. This whole idea of Positive thinking is really a farce, what needs to be done is Positive living, and the only way for this to happen is through development of the Self. Once you are satisfied within yourself such thoughts that now trouble you just tend to disappear. Its that simple, but not easy. That is why there are so few people of living FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(12), and of course there is industry that does not want you to be Fulfilled for they can sell a lot more to a discontent Person. The Person buys as a way of filling their void, industry loves it and that is why industry never promotes True FULFILLMENT(12) of the Person: keep the populace basically unhappy and you will sell so much more.

In terms of Religion of Birth I am Catholic, and prior to my personal crash in 1986 I studied many Religions, many philosophies of Life and many systems of personal growth all to no avail. I crashed and my Life was almost taken from me. I had so many questions and no answers. In TRUTH(33) what I needed was not answers but rather a way so that I may know and Live
FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(15). Miraculously I was given THE WAY(36) to FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(15) and all the answers were suddenly known to me. Since that time I do not study any type of Religion of philosophy of Life, instead I live LIFE(15). So much Superior and this is what I would LOVE(14) for you Sowmya, to live LIFE(15). It is the Greatest reality of all. So in terms Hindu philosophy my KNOWLEDGE(0) is not presently GREAT(8) which is good, too much can actually cloud the GROWTH(65) of one`s WISDOM(77) for KNOWLEDGE(0) is of someone else whereas WISDOM(77) must come from within yourself.  WISDOM(77) is a rare and precious gem indeed.

Salvation and liberation of the Person comes through the development of WISDOM(77) which becomes manifested as living LOVE(14) in TRUTH(33).

Remember with your Meditation to keep doing it daily and to just keep returning to you Mantra whenever your drift off in to thought, no need to focus simply bring yourself back to your Mantra each and every time you realize you are in thought. That`s all you need do.

I really care for you Sowmya, I want so much for you to live the Fullness of this Beautiful Person you are. You can do it, I know you can.

LOVE(14) that is TRUTH(33),
EuGene

Subject: Merry Christmas!!


> Dear Eugene,
> Hi, Best wishes for Christmas for you & your family...

I have been stuck in middle of a project, hence the total silence...i have lot of thoughts on what you had shared in the last mail, but alas, hvnt been able to write
> will do so this weekend when im off..
> Take care
> Hope u enjoy my greeting!!!
>
> Regards
> Sowmya

Hi Sowmya,

Your Kindness is so warming, you are a very special Person, YES I do LOVE(14) your greeting and I want you to have a most enjoyable Christmas; let it filled with PEACE(29), LOVE(14) and lots of laughter. I look forward to hearing from you as always,

Yours Truly,
EuGene