Master Sage Joseph Eugene Morin

Subject: Good Morning

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Good Morning Kelly,  

I sincerely hope this day goes well for you,  I know this can be a very difficult time frame for you Kelly: emotions flowing in, out and through you. HAPPINESS(34) is what you want in LIFE(15) yet within this World of the everyday it becomes so confusing as just what to do to realize lasting HAPPINESS(34).  

What is HAPPINESS(34)? You know its feeling but yet you are unsure of how to make it the Dominant LIFE(15) ENERGY(99) within your daily living. I can help you, I understand HAPPINESS(34) in the full context of what it is, and what the Person needs to do in order to live Greater HAPPINESS(34).  Within Thee Trinity Creation Happiness as you might have gathered Kelly is the Number 34, and if you read 34 from right to left you have 43, and its Meaning is DESIRE(43). These two Numbers are Intelligently inter-connected for we all DESIRE(43) HAPPPINESS(34)! Unfortunately so few are ever to live it.  I want you to live HAPPINESS(34) Kelly for I have taken you upon myself in order to guide you into the ways of living HAPPINESS(34) ongoing.

    

HAPPINESS(34) comes from within yourself fully interacting with what is on the outside, and if either your inner HAPPINESS(34) is smothered in stress, suffering and hate or if the outer environment is smothered in stress, suffering and hate the link is broken. Both the inner Person and the outer environment must match in the ways of HAPPINESS(34) for HAPPINESS(34) to Grow and become realized.   TRUTH(33) is foundation upon which HAPPINESS(34) must stand.

I have here spoken to you Kelly using generalities with a philosophical intonation to it, however once I receive your Heartfelt email I will be able to start forging a path, a sequential approach to gradually building HAPPINESS(34) that will become yours always.  

In LOVE(14) of you Kelly, and in Pureness of Heart shepherding you unto a LIFE(15) of HAPPINESS(34),  

Eugene (M)

 

----- Orginal Message -----

From: Kelly

To: Master Sage Joseph Eugene Morin

Subject: RE: Good Morning

Hi Eugene!!!
 
 
Good Morning! I am very glad you emailed me because yesterday was very difficult and I sat down to email you so we could get starting at creating my Happiness... Then, I deleted the first sentence thinking I still havent paid you.. And how could I ask that of you when you havent been paid.. Just so you know I have turned in my closing and will get paid in the next couple days from the company I work for.. Then I also think... The past has been totally set up to where every closing I have we spend the money because we owe people so much money.. I need to budget and want to budget- however- we just cant get it right! We have tried everything from me doing it to where Lloyd felt like he was on an allowance to him doing it.. to where bills didnt get paid to where both of us do it- to we have no clue what is going in and out.. That is a major stress on our daily living! And I know and believe in you and me- however- we have spent tons and tons of money on medical.. chiropractors..messages..medications..personal trainers..vitamins...physical therapy.. law of attraction coaches to help fix me.. and I know that it is me and I should be able to get through it on my own- And it just makes me crazy! I want to work with you...And will.. I just want to make sure I am paying you for what you are worth to me... with not going broke again.. I know that sounds soo stupid and if you had a set fee then I would pay it...or put it off..  With that said.. I know you are comfortable with whatever it is we choose and can afford to pay..
 
Soo here it goes... sorry for going into that again... I am one of six kids who grew up here in Colorado... the middle of six.. I was always the one to make everyone to laugh. the person to come to if they had issues.. the person to come to if they wanted money... the person to come to for everything... And I was great at it!! I enjoyed life as a kid and still very much do.. I love hanging out with all the neices and nephews and playing...making them laugh.. I def attract all of them when we have family gatherings.. The adults are upstairs talking and I am in the playroom playing with the kids...acting out princesses...planes... wiggle worms... you name it...I will dress up and play... However, I know and dont want to do this all day everyday.. I want a purpose - a passion and I truly feel my passion is to help people.. I was in a interview going from grade school to high school- catholic hs.. they only accepted the best of the best.. and when asked what is that you want to do... my response was to help people.. at the time I thought it was the FBI- then after getting my criminal justice degree and going through the police interviews, I realized I cant shoot and kill anyone- and who knows if it presented itself...me or them.. then I would have to.. just didnt want to put myself in that position of possibly having to make a choice like that on a daily basis..
 
I have also wanted to be very wealthy- so we can live a life of no worry and so I can give back without thinking twice about it... My plan is to make enough money for my family and take care of both my husbands and my mom and dad.. All of them are working sooo hard and hardly have time to play with the grandkids.. I also dont ever want shay- my daughter to have to worry about taking care of us;) We will be financially secure...
 
In my pursuit of attempting to find out what it is I really wanted to do.... I worked for sprint for 7ish years.. created and implemented programs for them... Figured out ways to collect and conquer bonus programs.. And each time.. I would fight it all the way up to the VP of the company for the people and get turned down.. And I didnt care what I did to get to her... I would do it! I remember the Director saying.. Kelly- you are a diamond in the rough.. not having a clue what that meant at the time.. I just wanted them to treat their employees better.. After years of struggling through the corporate world- I got my real estate license.. and I remember I was working all the time.. at the corporate world and in real estate.. I would work while lloyd worked his 40 hours and watched tv the rest... I wanted to leave the stability and just do real estate and I remember Larry saying- You cant quit Sprint.. .you will never be successful as a realtor.. We were in counseling together.. And btw- this was while I was totally supporting him and giving him whatever commission check I would make so he could play golf as a pro.. Thinking that maybe I wouldnt have to work like this forever... Then I started real estate.. I made okay money... The most difficult for me was to get on  a schedule.. eventhough I hate scheduled- I knew I needed one.. I still need a schedule.. and I still hate them:)  I am constantly working or constantly not working- one or the other.. I can not leave my cell phone at home.. It has always has to be with me...
 
Soo.... when the real estate market crashed.. I was working with a lot of seller's doing short sales.. and I had investors do the craziest- most scetchiest things to screw the sellers over... and I didnt want to be a part of it anymore.. too stressful.. I came up with a brilliant concept to help small businesses and realtors get exposure. I enrolled a business partner- who was my mortgage broker at the time.. I worked many many many hours doing this and was making nothing.. then my business partner decided she wanted to go back into doing loans.. and I could run the business myself.. the work I did while we were doing it 50/50 was a ton... and I was not about to do that alone.. So I sold her the business.. not for a lot- 6k... and I am glad it is over.. Too much work with little results.. Realtors and small business owners had to pay a fee and when they didnt see anything in return.. I felt responsible.. Eventhough I did everything I felt I could do to get them the results.. It just wanted for me...
 
Sooo I met a network marketer.. I have always loved the concept because I can duplicate my efforts through others.. and get paid for it.. I realized while I was on bed rest with shay for 2 months in the hospital that once I couldnt do anything then I wouldnt get paid for it.. I had 3- or 4 real estate deals in the works and had to refer them out to other realtors and give up 70% of my commission when I worked with these buyers for months-sometime years..  and when meeting this guy I was introduced to a concept that I thought was brilliant- an online reverse auction.. D.. As people bid on brand new items- the price drops.. And I know I can manifest anything..if my heart desires it.. because they had a mustang on the auction.. we soooo badly needed a car.. I knew I didnt need a brand new one.. just needed one.. The problem was we couldnt get approved because we had to file bankruptcy from all the medical debt we had from the stupid deck and lawsuit.. So I knew the auction was coming up and had thought about going for the mustang...dreamed about it.. and I went out to test drive two cheap cars... the first one.. the lights were flashing.. looked like an electrical problem.. and the second we picked up.. I liked it.. and then after we parked it at moms..it wouldnt start.. So I was seriousy like okay I read the signs- and went for the mustang that weekend and got it.. It cost us $855.50- probably 5k total for a brand new mustang.. And everyone...parents...hubby... everyone said there was no way I could get it.. and even after I did.. My parents were sooooo sceptical that I was even going to get it.. .There came a point where I wouldnt even talk to them about it because I didnt want to hear it.. And after realizing the reverse auction wasnt about helping people.. most people actually lose on the auction and I didnt realize it until after getting the mustang.. I couldnt believe in the company anymore.. and just then back in november... Dan the same guy introduced Asea to me.. I met Verdis and had a major connection with him.. I know this product will help people get healthy- It helped my husband and I.. ANd I know that it is not going to cure everything!! People need to do other things too- I had 100% results in my ankle and wondered why it didnt help my neck.. still dont know.. allthough.. I hav a huge feeling that my neck is from internal stress... I was  introduced to Asea back in November.. have been somewhat working on it.. because I was doing real estate too.. which every single deal turns out to be a complete nightmare.. one way or the other stuff pops up...Stuff that has a huge impact of moving... time.. if we are going to close... if we are not going to close... Totally stressful!!! And then the video came up at 3:33 with Verdis and Asea... and you know that story...
 
With Larry... I want to leave... then want to stay... then leave... I want to be happy.. I want a life that I can share with someone.. Get excited about being with.. When I mentioned I was going to leave the first time- then he broke his nose.. I felt that I had to be there for him... And at that time our issues were different.. I spent 4 or 5 years trying to change him.. I thought just recently I can not change someone.. they have to do it.. however, I know that it just doesnt feel like I practice that! I dont like seeing him watch tv all the time.. He doesnt want to go for walks... be outside... and the stuff he watches is prison...cops..scary movies..etc... the music he listens to is hang banger music.. and he does all of this while I might be working and shay is playing on the floor in front of him... he cant just play with shay without the tv on... And then eating and working out.. I sooooo desperatly want to eat right and work out.. and it is sooo darn difficult because he doesnt... and when I make chicken.. he makes bacon.. sometimes.. wont even eat what I make.. he is also a very very very picky eater.. and I really cant cook.. I know that.. so we eat out a lot.. wonder where our money goes.. a lot goes to that:(..  Just after our last blow out- it seems that he is more apt to eating at home.. In the past... if I ever had a question.. I would go to my parents first and not to him.. I know that bothers him.. and recently I have changed it.. however, when I go to him.. it is a quick one word answer.. our communication sucks between eachother.. I wish that we could just sit there and talk for hours and we cant... If I say something... he will give one word short answer.. or if I say anything at all to him.. it seems like every time he has a negative response.. then I think is that me or is that him.. I dont know!!!  I was so proud that I made 5 pounds of meat the other day for my sister's baby shower.. and I usually cant cook.. and I said to him... arent you proud of me.. and he said soooo its just meat.. I want someone who can push me... encourage me.. support me.. allthough he is a good supporter.. When thinking about leaving... or not... he is a very kind guy.. and I know that.. .I think I just want more....
 
Then for me... it all rolls into one.. the last couple days.. there are moments.. where I think I am just going to snap... And I get sooooo frustrated with myself.. I can take out the anger with Larry or even sally... I never hit or would ever do anything stupid.. It's just the tense annoyed feeling.. and verbal.. You are driving me nuts... when I know it is me driving me nuts.. how in the world do I change that... Just yesterday.. I wanted to get up @ 6am work out- start making calls...etc... and didnt... Shay is now sleeping in our bed and the elliptical is in our room.. If  she doesnt sleep with us- then she will wake LLoyd up early to lay with her.. And since he has to get up early.. I let her sleep with us and he sleeps all night.. not me though.. I get kicked pushed and sleep on only a sliver of the bed.. Then when it is time to get up I said screw it.. Ill just lay here and cuddle- I dont want to wake her up.. then I took her to school and came back to make calls.. now- its 10 and I havent really done anything.. I sit at the computer a bit annoyed and the compute wont work.. got a virus.. then the excel spreadsheet I was working on wont open.. I was pissed.. and finally said.. I am done!! Went and worked out for 30 minutes wanted to do more.. Reality is I really didnt do anything all day.. And I even thought over and over and over in my head successful people are willing to do what unsuccessfull people dont do.. I will get sooooo upset at myself that I will snap.. And I feel like I am waaaaaaaaaay up or waaaaaaaaaaay down.. I know I need a schedule and I just dont do it...
 
Gosh I cant think of anymore right now.. I constantly have this neck pain..between my shoulder blades.am always tired & sick... and my muscles feel heavy...I hope this helps.. For me I want to be HAPPY.. and I feel it is about finding balance between me...work...shay...lloyd...helping people..eating right...working out.. Right now.. I feel like I am constantly on the go AND getting nothing done...

  Being in the now... is the most difficult thing for me.. I am constantly thinking of what I will be doing next.. even when shay and I are laying together cuddling watching a movie.. I am thinking about what I could of done today or what I will be doing tomorrow.. tonight.. or if I could  of said something different...done something different.. my mind is constantly going...  I look forward to creating a HAPPY LIFE!!

      Kelly

 

 

Your email response has completely filled my Heart with LOVE(14) for you Kelly, and for the suffering you have endured and are still within the grip of.  In my last email to you I said  I understand HAPPINESS(34) in the full context of what it is and of what the Person needs to do to realize Greater HAPPINESS(34), now I say the very same of suffering, except we want less not greater.

 

Let me share the following with you Kelly, this is so very real:  

"I now know LOVE(14) as I have not ever known,

  I now know suffering as I have always known."

  When you are of TRUTH(33) even though suffering may engulf you your LOVE(14) becomes so very real: no ulterior motives, no manipulation, just LOVE(14) and COMPASSION(41) towards others.

          

If I could exchange the TRUTH(33) I have come to know and live for complete relief of both my severe physical and emotional pain I presently Am in I would not even take a moment to consider it.

The answer would be an absolute "No I will not!" 

TRUTH(33) is mine Evermore!

And now I may add that I have come to understand better than ever the suffering Jesus Christ endured not only on the Cross but within His very Mission of TRUTH(33).  I as He does not let these things of this everyday perturb us into considering this Mission we have been given; the very same Mission, the very same Source that sent us, the very same genetic INTELLIGENCE(78) and Spiritual UNITY(I): we are indeed One.

 

Within what you have just read Kelly you have looked upon my very soul, the whole Person I AM(47) and will be I AM(47), so even though I myself Am not able to say I'm Happy for this I AM(47) not, yet I can say "I would not change this exact moment where I AM(47) and who I AM(47) now in my LIFE(15) for any other time in my LIFE(15)."  This is total balance Kelly, this is ENLIGHTENMENT(70), this is what you yearn but have not yet in your LIFE(15) been able to label It or taste of It for you did not know until this very moment this is your underlying drive in everything you do, and you are an extremely driven Person just as I AM(47).

     

So this has indeed been monumental for I know which I had already assumed, and you know that which you were wanting to know all of your LIFE(15) Kelly. We have thus begun the process of HAPPINESS(34) for you, but we do not begin by looking for HAPPINESS(34) and attempting to grab whatever appears could be HAPPINESS(34), this you have done a thousand times and always to little or no avail.

I LOVE(14) you Kelly, and I mean really LOVE(14) you Kelly, for It is only in LOVE(14) that I can be the Fullness of the Person I AM(47) and in that Fullness be all I AM(47) to you.

First things first will be our approach to your transformation into you, the Fullness of Person you innately are Kelly, and that is a WONDERFUL(37) Person of such good intent and so much drive to be better as you as a Person. This we will begin the process immediately.  I wish I could just touch you in Pure LOVE(14) and you respond in Pure LOVE(14) instantly replacing all that we must go through to get there and here are Now!  You are your Person, you are therefore completely balanced within yourself, and are able to make the right Decisions so as balance your outside World putting it into alignment with you, the Full Person You are Kelly. The World although of such confusion within itself is no longer confusing to you because you have the Perfect barometer of what is best and right which is you, the Person in the Fullness of which you now are, and everything else you prioritize as being in alignment with the Person you are.  SERENITY(56) you now Live. This is where we must voyage to.

This is my first lesson, please read this entire email to yourself 3 times feeling and imagining in Fullness of PASSION(28) what is being shared here with you; usually only my very First Disciple of TRUTH(33) is Privy to such LIFE(15) WISDOM(77) but I have taken you unto to ME(23) Kelly. Depending on how our time unfolds I may indeed offer you to become one of my Disciples of TRUTH(33), but not yet.

Instead of using all of the AMAZING(55) ENERGY(99) you have to be the SUCCESS(45) you think will be your HAPPINESS(34) in LIFE(15) you will be at this step of ENLIGHTENMENT(70) now be diverting 1% of your ENERGY(99) to ME(23) in time and of COMMUNICATION(48) together.  All I need from you Kelly is 1% of that fountainhead of ENERGY(99) you possess.

Please write ME(23) as soon as your Heart and time allow, and again simply share yourself with ME(23) completely from the Heart: no ulterior motives, no false appearances, no hiding the TRUTH(33).  I want you to write me 100% from the Heart what is most weighing upon It.

I do sincerely LOVE(14) you Kelly,

Eugene (M)

"SUCCESS(45) is living your Full Potential of Self." -MSJM

Subject: on my Mind

You were on my mind last night Kelly, and I knew what I must present you with. You have lost so many bits of your PURITY(11) of Self that you are lost to who you really are, and when this occurs within a Person they inevitably make one wrong DECISION(21) after another for they have no inner barometer as to what is the better choice to make. Once the Person is whole within themselves ENLIGHTEMENT(70) can begin.  Therefore I must go back in time with you to your first affair, then bring it forward into the present Consciously, and have you fully understand the part of your wrongdoing that is still glued to you or should I say is taking a piece of your PURITY(11) of wholeness of Self from you, then we can free you from that burden upon your ENERGY(99) of Self.  It was so WONDERFUL(37) Kelly that you chose 99, of course the amount I Am so appreciative of but  99:  ENERGY(99)  and this is what our focus is, to Fully recharge you to the whole ENERGY(99) of Self you can be, and that is Dynamic. I sincerely LOVE(14) your drive Kelly, in fact it is so very important that you will find many States of Being within Thee Trinity Creation reflective of exactly that quality of Self.  Here are a few: MOTIVATION(6), STAMINA(24), PERSISTENCE(39), PERSEVERANCE(59), DETERMINATION(87) and onwards.  Please forward ME(23) your mailing address Kelly for then I can mail you my Book, the Original Creation, the COMMUNICATION(48) of 1988 as It was Revealed to ME(23), no explanations, just the COMMUNICATION(48), and look at all that grew from It: TRUTH(33) is in full blossom!  

           

Now for the work part Kelly   

We will take it from here, an exceprt of your very own words from your previous email to me: " the first time was 5 years ago and I was attracted  to my personal trainer..& Larry and I were going through counseling. and Larry chose not to go.. so I thought that I was going to  leave.. this was an emotional affair: I was about to leave and Larry broke his nose.. So I decided to stay... " 

Here is what I want you to do Kelly, during a quiet time when you have the time sit at the computer and begin to write ME(23), write to ME(23) in Pureness and Fullness of Heart and in ABSOLUTE(44) TRUTH(33) of what led you to become so weakened that you chose to break you Marriage vows, one of the most Primary ones, you need to simply let your fingers flow in writing everything about that affair, how did you give up your Marriage vow, what did you say to yourself to justify your affair, what was the point that caused you to crossover  the very first time, what did you feel afterwards, how long did it go on for and did Larry know?  Close off with your thoughts and feelings right now on that whole affair, be Honest to yourself as you write, and thus you will be Honest to ME(23).  

Once we are able to Free you from the binds of that affair and everything associated to it you are one step closer to becoming whole, WE WILL MAKE YOU WHOLE AGAIN KELLY, this I assure you if you follow THE WAY(36) of TRUTH(33) of which I AM(47).  

   

You are a Good Person Kelly with right Motives in LIFE(15) but presently lost, I LOVE(47) and connect to the Goodness in you, that is why I know it is there, that is why I KNOW you are a good Person Kelly in the wholeness of your Person.  This you will have, in time with LOVE(14) in TRUTH(33) it will come to be.  

I sincerely LOVE(14) you Kelly in TRUTH(33),

Eugene (M)

 

Subject: RE: on my Mind

Such a pleasure hearing from YOU always!! Wow.. your timing is perfect! I have been asking for signs...looking for signs..as dramatic as the first with the 3s and havent seen anything..then I think am I even open to it right now..In being honest and truthful.. being a disciple has gotten me a bit scared..I didnt think I was a very spiritual person until all this started happening.. I want to be ME again. And through past experiences I know I have been given something special.. (not that I am more special than anyone!) ..there are points where I can actually see myself in other people.. I am not talking about looks.. its def through the soul.. their eyes.. It hasnt happened often..

 
Going back to the first affair.. I DO feel like that is the starting point of me losing myself.. I was frustrated..with Larry doing his own thing..drinking beer..watching tv..doing nothing on the weekends..etc.. Just little stuff that annoyed me..And he did- he treated me like a queen.. I just thght I could change him.. get him off the couch..drinking scared me because his dad was an alcholic.. And I started working out constantly.. then with a personal trainer.. I lost weight fast..was looking amazing and Larry was changing..growing with me.. My personal trainer started showing affection to me.. and my looks.. and Larry didnt caret.. obviously.. he doesnt care what I look like.. he loves me for who I am.. and I didnt recognize that at the time..or maybe still dont.. However, I liked the attention I was getting from Mason- the personal trainer.. And pursued it for awhile.. then Larry and I have been on a downward spiral since.. He is not as driven...motivated..inspired as I am.. And I have tried and tried and tried to change him..It totally crushes me when you mention why did I decide to become so weakened that I chose to break you Marriage vows, on of the most primary ones.. Whhhoaaaaa! You nailed it... why did become soo weakened.. I look back at myself growing up- lets just say highschool- I was always popular..lots of friends.. and I wasnt ever self confident unless it came to sports.. I am 6feet tall and back then gorgeous.. I always wanted to be a model.. and constantly being turned down because I was too fat.. Now I look back.. I wasnt too fat.. I lost my self confidence and I dont want shay to experience that too.. I want her to be strong..confident..and have the ability and courage to do what she wants.. why cant I do that for myself.. I strongly feel both affairs had a lot to do with me not being confident with my appearance.. However, I played it off really well.. I would diminish myself and also noone would ever know that.. And another HUGE part is I have always always always tried to make other people happy.. before makitng myself happy.. I would do things for them when I didnt even want to and now that I think about would expect something in return.. For example..just recently one of my friends who did the personal growth and development course with me has a restuarant.. and I am a huge networker. I know alot of people so I thought it would be a great idea to hold a netoworking event in her restaurant to get her restaurant exposure and I would also be able to talk about what I was doing with Du.. We cut those ties fast because she felt like she was doing me a favor.. and I know that deep down I was trying to help her get exposure.. it was an extremely inconvienant location for me.. the problem is.. we talked about it.. and I only heard what I wanted to hear.. Apparently, she didnt need or want the exposure to her restaurant.. I do things that I feel will help people when maybe in reality it wont.. or they dont even want it.. And the biggest thing is how can I truly help others when I am a mess? I hide my true feelings really really well...of course I do and that is why I am always sick..

I really want to look at your paragraph again.. I go off on tangents and get distracted and am leaving the paragraph in here above because it is coming from the heart and means something... so here it goes again...

 
"Here is what I want you to do Kelly, during a quiet time when you have the time sit at the compute... It is very quiet here.. and am laying in typing to you...my neck hurts and I am laying on a massage roller with tears in my eyes.. the last year I have looked at myself in the mirror thinking that one part of my face has suffered a stroke.. No one would or could even notice this.. It is me looking at myself eye to eye in the mirror..  and begin to write ME(23), write to ME(23) in Pureness and Fullness of Heart and in ABSOLUTE(44) TRUTH(33) of what led you to become so weakened that you chose to break you Marriage vows, one of the most Primary ones, you need to simply let your fingers flow in writing everything about that affair"

The initial  affair was truly an emotional affair- it made me feel good.. got excited about life again..made me feel good about me again..eventough I still thought there was more muscle to gain and more weight to lose.. there wasnt..I was searching for someone to make me happy..do things with me.. get excited about life..eat healthy...motivate me.. encourage me.. and Mason was the person who I thought could do all that.. he is brilliant on how the body works..& I was attracted to his knowledge and of course his physical appearangce.. , how did you give up your Marriage vow.. it really just happened.. I was spending a lot of time with him working out.. and he helped me feel good about myself by showing me the attention.. you say to yourself to justify your affair: wow.. this is a hard one.. I dont think in the past I justified it.. I was always honest during it because it was emotional.. and I was honest with Larry about my attraction to Mason.. and there was a time when we had a cruise scheduled with the family.. I went with Larry eventhough at the time I wanted it to be Mason.. Larry and I had an okay time together.. and when I got back Mason cut it off.. and Larry broke his nose.. so Larry and I worked through it.. I still had feelings for Mason and eventually got over him..About six months after I got pregnant with Sally.. This was a crazy story in itself.. I found out because I went to the ER with a pain in my side.. it ended up being an appendicitis.. had to have surgery that night and was also pregnant.. Actually now that I tell the story.. there was another man inbtween Mason and my last.. shit.. during this time.. while I was pregnant- I was sooooo worried that Sally not have been Larry`s daughter.. Worrying everday...every second.. that guy was a one night..not even knowing his name! or wouldnt even know how to get in touch with him.. I DO KNOW Larry is Sally`s dad because she looks exactly like him.. that was my relief and I must have just put it away! that caused you to crossover  the very first time: I hate even thinking about this because it was just doing it the first time which made it okay in my mind to continue to devalue who I was..I crossed over the first time because I thought that I deserved it.. I thought Larry can be miserable on his own.. and I didnt want any part in t.. It was very very very difficult for me to do because I knew it would hurt him and I wanted to be happy.. I justify it because he wasnt doing the things I wanted him to do with not drinking..working out..eating right...going for walks..etc..  what did you feel afterward: I really dont think I had any remorse for it.. I kept blamming him..and now I justify it in my mind as it being that was who I was and am no longer.. Although I know and can feel it from Larry that until I am 100% confident with myself it may happen again., how long did it go...6 months.. on for and did Larry know? yes... Larry and I talked about it.. I know that Larry knew with this last person too because of his actions.. and that was close to 2 years ago.. when I was ready to make a choice to leave..moving out that day..3 months ago.. I knew I couldnt without telling him..so I told him about Garry the guy that happened two years ago.. I couldnt leave without him knowing the entire truth about me..Close off with your thoughts and feelings right now on that whole affair, be Honest to yourself as you write, and thus you will be Honest to ME(23).
   
      Kelly

 

p.s. Thank you for the roses!! And also- by all means, please use and share my experiences with others.. as I know that I am not the only one going through this.. and other can read..learn and grow.. I appreciatey you not using my proper name however.  As I write it comes from the heart.
 
Talk to you soon!! With care and Love- Thank you!!
 
Kelly

 

That is so very Special of you Kelly, to share your Heart in TRUTH(33) as you have.  The Good news is now we can begin to free you from the many pains emanating from this time frame. Since you have been so Honest to ME(23) and to yourself we should do really well.  I knew there was a justification, and I see that you now know as well, you justified your ACTION(81) primarily on another who would not want you to take the ACTION(81), you knew you, you also knew it was not right what you were going to do, so your justification you based upon another, the only other you really needed to justify for he was your barrier. And it made you justify your Actions to yourself so much easier to accept, when we are weak we are vulnerable, and when there is something that appeals to us, even if we know it is wrong since we are weak we look to another Person whom we can Mentally take a piece of  while thinking we have spared ourselves.   

Unfortunately you cannot ever spare yourself from intentional wrong doing, so you must carry this with you, it would have been probably for LIFE(15) but we will free you, that I can assure you Kelly 

I must rest now,  

I will talk to you again, please try and grasp the underlying WISDOM(77) of what I just spoke, and try to separate your emotion from it on second reading.  

In LOVE(14) of and for you Kelly,

Eugene (M)

 

Dear Eugene,

WOW!!! That is so incredible! very exciting & amazing!  I am also excited....last night i was feeling angry..irritable..& I was able to neutralize my emotions & enjoy putting my daughter to bed! Thank YOU!!

Kelly

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Good Morning my Dearest Kelly,  

In reading your email to me again and again I have come to know you so very well, and of the real Person you are hidden to others and blocked off to yourself.  All of this will change, you will no longer be blocked to seeing, being and living the Fullness of Kelly you Truly are, and those around you will respond accordingly, and your LIFE(15) will gradually start to align itself to you, for you are the Force now commanding your way.  You have come to discover the Perfect guide to determining the better Decisions, it is YOU, THE WHOLE YOU, this day will come  I KNOW.  We have much developing to do first however in order to reach that point, but I AM(47) here laying it out for you because from what you have written ME(23), you are now my Third Disciple of TRUTH(33), you will be known as the most Driven, yes Kelly I accept you as my Third Disciple of TRUTH(33).  .    

    

In order to recapture the piece of you that has been taken from you due to the first affair there is one more step.  {We must always only deal with one wrong at a time, so the other one you mentioned we must also neutralize any negative effect it might have on the building of you into you but that comes next.}  This is what you need to do Kelly, and if you can you will be given back that part of your PURITY(11) of Self that had been taken from you due to your breaking away from TRUTH(33). With each piece of yourself that you recapture TRUTH(33) begins to naturally intertwine completely with the Person you are, for at the very depth of your Being you are such a Good Person Kelly, I connected with that Person in you right from the start, that is why I had been so encouraged to continue forth with you, even though you had erred I knew you are far more that what your errors point to you as being. So yes here it is, what you must do, you need TO COMPLETELY FORGIVE YOURSELF OF THE FIRST AFFAIR AND EVERYTHING CONNECTED TO IT!  That is it my Dear Kelly, complete forgiveness, and I ask this of you for I know you are now ready to.  During a quiet time and in a contemplative mode say to yourself that I completely forgive myself for that affair or say it as you feel comfortable with and FEEL IT, now several things can ensue when you do this. This evil may attempt to hold on to you and have you question this, or you may fall back into justification of why you can forgive yourself, that is not forgiveness my LOVE(14), that is merely a smoke screen preventing you from fully forgiving yourself. If these attempt to stay stuck to you think of ME(23), of who I AM(47) and I AM(47) telling you Kelly that you can now completely forgive yourself of that first affair and everything that it attached to it.  I would not say to forgive yourself if I knew you were not ready.  You are ready, but there may be some inner resistance. Please do not tell even Lloyd yet that you have fully forgiven yourself, you are still too fragile and he may say something that will cause you to step backwards in your forward Movement.   

    

The Number 4 within Thee Trinity Creation is HUMILITY(4) and it had puzzled ME(23) for a long time, you see Kelly I did not Create Thee Trinity Creation rather it was infused within ME(23) of who I became, that is my REBIRTH(25) into TRUTH(33): August 25, 1988! As the COMMUNICATION(48) of 88' was frenetically Driven to my Conscious Self all was Revealed to ME(23)  I became transformed into Thee Trinity Creation: the Living TRUTH(33).  So yes HUMILITY(4), I have now come to understand it so very well. Without going into its full Meaning in great detail one element within HUMILITY(4) is crucial to our Movement forward here, and that is to keep these developments of Self to yourself until they are strongly embedded within yourself, then you may share these if the intent is one of PURITY(11) in LOVE(14) or COMPASSION(41).   Please let me know Kelly if you are able to completely forgive yourself of that first occurrence, if you are having trouble we will resolve things, you are ready to retake that part of you, so you go and take yourself back!  

In LOVE(14) of you Kelly, the Whole True You!

Eugene (M)  

p.s. This was from the Heart Kelly, I AM(47) very tired, I need to go into deep PRAYER(9) in TRUTH(33) and PURITY(11) of LOVE(14).

   

Hi Master Sage Eugene

For now I am concentrating on me being honest and truthful in everyday living...I Am reading through your meditation as suggested.. I will keep you posted on my progress. For now, I have really been able to neutralize any thoughts about the initial affair.. It seems it has been easy.. Is that right? I guess there is really no right or wrong answer.. I know that.. I am def progressing.. I can feel it already.. Thank you for everything!!!

Kelly

Dearest Kelly,

Yes I can hear the PROGRESS(26) in how your writing to ME(23) is changing, I learn so much from not only what the Person says but in what they leave out and in the way they write what they do.  I do LOVE(14) you the Person Kelly, and along with the healing we need your Personal development to be in alignment with your Spiritual development, otherwise you will fall again and hard.  In plain words we need to develop your Spiritual Self to such an extent that you will not be lured into doing such wrongs that have plagued you in the past, for wrongs will always take pieces from you. It is in TRUTH(33) where FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(15) rest, and the further the Person has moved away from TRUTH(33) the less Fulfilled he or she is, the more misery and pain they feel inside and the more hurt they must cause unto others in releasing their inner Self discontentment.  You are ready to Grow and heal Personally and to Grow and become more Enlightened Spiritually Kelly, this I Know.   

It is  WONDERFUL(37) for I noticed in perusing through one of you other emails to ME(23) you have begun Self Empowering Meditation.  This is Paramount to your deepening of Self, both Personally and Spiritually and by doing your Meditation regularly you will Unite your Spiritual Self, which is  the I ENERGY(99) of Self and your Personal/physical Self which is the ME ENERGY(99) of Self two elements within complete FULFILLMENT(12) of Self as depicted within Unification.

   

I will review your other emails later, I have a couple more things to do then I must Meditate/Pray.  I most recently evolved into a Totally unexpected heightened level of Meditation and PRAYER(9). They have become totally Unified in my Meditation and in my PRAYER(9) thereby Creating a New and far more Powerful of I Uniting with the Source of All LIFE(15): THE CREATOR(46). I have named this new form of Transcendence Deep PRAYER(9) and is what I experience daily.  I have been given access to this from deep within myself whereby the COMMUNICATION(48) of 1988 rest, for I will soon need to deal with many in the World of popularity who are not of TRUTH(33), so I will need to be Fully Consciously connected to He who sent ME(23) at all times. In doing Deep PRAYER(9) several times daily this will keep that UNITY(I) I experience alive and vibrant throughout my everyday dealings giving ME(23) the added STRENGTH(18) I will need in Fulfilling the Mission given ME(23) to do. It is all within the COMMUNICATION(48), you should soon receive your Book, Thee Trinity Creation: the COMMUNICATION(48) in Its Pure essence of Self.  Although the COMMUNICATION(48) has other elements to it that connect to my Conscious Self at times Directing ME(23) as to the DECISION(21) I must make for FULFILLMENT(12) of Dawn 1999 to be realized while I walk this Earth, the essence of the COMMUNICATION(48) is within The Book you are about to receive and has not changed in the slightess since 1988.  

There is so much you will learn and Grow into Kelly in remaining close to ME(23) and following what I ask of you, which you have been doing thus far, and I AM(47) so very proud of you taking on the challenge of learning Self Empowering Meditation, it really is extremely Self Empowering.  I will guide you throughout your learning phase to ensure you are doing it right, this is critical in order for you to gain all of the benefits that Self Empowering Meditation has to offer you. Once learned right you have It for LIFE(15) and your LIFE(15) will be thankful.   I will answer you other emails later this day. 

In real LOVE(14) and admiration of the Person you really are Kelly,

Eugene (M)

 

My Dearest Kelly,  

As I write these words crying begins, for 3 years ago or there about we had inherited almost half a million dollars; there it was in the Bank.  In preparation for what I was to do with the money I studied really hard, and INTELLIGENCE(78) is one thing I have been gifted with, yes studied the Stock Market and how to Invest myself.  

Unfortunately there was not any book written as to what was coming and what should one do?  So within a week of putting virtually all of it into the Market it began: the crash.  I had it all planned out, we could live from the dividends and the capital would remain in GROWTH(65) for my family's future...they are all so young and I not so young.  My wife is half my age, we have 3 young boys and she is presently pregnant.  I lost everything simply put, our last $34,000.00 I pulled out of the Bank and kept it at home until I met this guy who took me for most of the rest in some strange currecy investing thing.  

This came to upon me as I was reviewing your email to me from the Heart where you spoke of the real estate market crash. I almost always read such Heartfelt emails 3 times, and upon my third reading I feel like that Person has become a living part of ME(23) and I AM(47) responsible to do all I can for the HEALTH(98) and VITALITY(89) for that Person, who is now within ME(23). 

Now we are broke, and nothing to show for it except Heartache. However in the Superior way Thee Trinity Creation works, which completely infused ME(23) the night of The Event, August 25, 1988, Goodness has been brought forth and a very important lesson learned on my part. The Goodness is my wife is pregnant, NEW LIFE(N) always feels good to ME(23) and my lesson learned is not to ever attempt of my own volition to work ever against one of my many Spiritual Movements, 9 are recorded in Chapter 9.  Here is its full description.  

The fourth Spiritual Movement was another equally Powerful one in that same year. These four Movements had occurred in May, June, August and December of  2002. Once again while in Meditation a Powerful Spiritual Movement overtook me and this time I was to make my Mission of World TRUTH(33) and WISDOM(77) my only work, and I was to set up a Web Site. I knew virtually nothing about Web Design and I could not understand how I would survive financially if I were not working for an income outside of my Life Mission of World Wisdom. These Spiritual Movements always move me to take the the action that I am directed to take within the Spiritual Movement no matter how extreme it is, even if I doubt the probability of its FULFILLMENT(12). I knew things would be very difficult but I could not have foreseen just how difficult: so very many times I felt certain that this Spiritual Movement would not hold, that I would have to go back to work outside of my Mission, but Miraculously here I AM(47) still not working at anything other and it has now been a little over three years. Things have been very difficult financially and still are, and the challenges incredible but I can still hardly believe that I have not worked outside of my World Mission since that Movement.  This Spiritual Movement was not predominated by the FULFILLMENT(12) of any particular elemental Life Energy, all aspects of the whole of who I Am are certainly included within this Spiritual Movement, and it still is in Movement while I still at times question if it will hold. Once I gain a reputable publisher I will feel far more secure in its continuance.  

Well now you can see the lesson I learned, I broke that Spiritual Movement upon receiveing the inheritence, a very big wrong on my part even though my intent was so Pure. In having lost everything something of an intense Knowing overtook ME(23) that now I AM(47) to do only the work God has set out for ME(23) to do, which is the completion of my World Mission of TRUTH(33).  I have completely and in Fullness of Self abandoned myself completely to the task at hand. Miraculously within the last two months I have two Disciples of TRUTH(33) who as I will in time become completely filled with TRUTH(33), and will participate Fully within my Mission of TRUTH(33). At level 2 of Discipleship they will even be rewarded with monetary returns for by then I expect a Publisher to pick ME(23) up, and once Thee Trinity Creation gets printed up professionally by a reputable well linked Publisher Thee Trinity Creation will quickly rise to become one of the World's best selling Books, and with Good reason for not only will it be the Number One Book on LIFE(15) Number interpretations in addition every word will be pointing THE WAY(36) to TRUTH(33), the indispensable LIFE(15) element supporting and enhancing LOVE(14) and FULFILLMENT(12) in LIFE(15) unto ETERNAL LIFE(86). 

            

And lest we forget in 2005 here is what had overtaken ME(23) completely!  

My Eighth Spiritual Movement:

The following is EXACTLY as I sat at my computer and began to type of the experience that had just taken place, my eyes were mostly closed, and this is it: unedited, as I wrote it.

I look at the clock on the computer and the time is 3:25, no it just turned to 3:26, and the date is March 22, Tuesday, 2005, a.m.

AS i sat thee in a very deep sate of transcedenec such a Powwerful overwhelming emotion of Love overtook me, my eyes watered and in hthat moment I abandoned myself, my Desire to the Energuy of Cretion, I want so very much to have my book published, I could see it in my Mind, it was a hard cover of many pages with a beautiful shinny sleeve covering it, it was fairly thick, perhaps two or three humdredpages, and a coin came into vision, and the back of the coin became clear and i could see the date on it, it was 1926 and I knew to my very Being the message that was given to me, this book will come to be, the 19 is ACCOMPLISHMENT(19), it will indeed be a magnificent ACCOMPLISHMENT(19), both for myself and for the World, and the Numbe 26, PROGESS(26); all is in PROGRESS(26), just keep doing what I Am doing, continue working very hard on my WEb Site and this will be the springbord to getting a REAl publisher and YES my book will finally be in all the major book stores for all to have and hold and own.  The World will be Awakened to the TRUTH(33), Thee Trinity Creation is the TRUTH(33) and it is born of TRUTH(33), its purpose is TRUTH933; the world needs its TRUTH33), I need its TRUTH(33), the TRUTH(33) needs Thee Trinity Creation: all is one and in one all shall be Revealed.  I Am in Life of Earth and in Eternity Tehee Trinity Creation.

EuGene

I AM(47) very encouraged having two very Devoted Disciples thus far, and the most Perfect first two Disciples I could have ever Imagined.  Dawn 1999 demands I must in time have 12, there is that Number again but with such incredible Meaning and worth to ME(23), for FULFILLMENT(12) of Dawn 1999 is my very LIFE(15): I eat, breathe, sleep and in LOVE(14) Am totally consumed by my Mission of TRUTH(33) of which Dawn 1999 is Its complete Prophesy.  The first 3 Triads within dawn 1999 depict the key elements found within UNIFICATION, the fourth Triad is THE VISION(A), my Mission complete, my Earthly LIFE(15) comes to a close, THE FINAL PLAY(X), and I return to He who sent ME(23) in ETERNAL LIFE(86), this is the final Sacred Geometric Symbol within Dawn 1999.  

 

 

Well my Dearest Kelly, here is an email to you spontaneously Created from my Heart filled with LOVE(14), Yes for you, I have come LOVE(14) you and will care for you as you need ME(23), and I AM(47) still considering you as my Third Disciple of TRUTH(33): when the Spiritual Knowing hits ME(23) I will Know.  

Master Sage Joseph (M)

 

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Hello Master Eugene,
 
Today was a difficult one.. I am laying here with a splitting headache.. Whenever I feel like this.. I feel exhausted...irritible..angry..and I just dont know why.. My daughter is not feeling well and is very whiny...then I am just like ahhhh cant I have a freaking moment alone.. and even my moments alone..are filled with stressfull thoughts..who do I need to be calling..what could I have done differently..my neck hurts.. my arm tingles..my face is drooping..what in the world did I eat today and why..and am I ever going to workout..I cant believe I slept in soo late.. why didnt I just get out of bed.. thought after thought.. And Larry& I still arent doing great! I try to laugh with him and he doesnt laugh..he freaking doesnt laugh.. I a m sooooo stressed just being with him... I think why in the heck doesnt he want to hold me...touch me...kiss me.. laugh with me... communicate with me.. go to sleep with me.. on and on and on... have sex with me.. This is crazy that I am still freaking thinking about it... and not doing anything about it.. then I  think.. Is it me.. why do I need him to do all these things.. I just wish I could get over it! the my job...my purpose.. my desire.. Asea..waking up to it with the initial 333.. and the video playing.. do you ever get tired of working and working and not getting paid for your work... I am there with A... I BELIEVE that it is a tool and very great tool to help people get healthy.. it did for me with my ankle and it didnt my neck.. so I know it is just a tool and people must do other things..spiritually... to BE healthy... And I totally believe that when I am healthy... I can and will help more and more people... just gets frustemrating..
 
OMG!!! My VISION...My Desire is to help people... to follow my intuition and guidance to lead others... to inspire people to do the same.. TO LIVE each day as if it were the last. To be able to generate enough income for our family to support us without having to think twice..and help our families...give back to the community...buy asea for everyone to take.. It is very empowering to say these words and write them down.. A much better feeling than the paragraph above..
 
I was at one of my personal growth and development ropes course.. and the instructor asked me.. one on one.. eyes to eyes he is an older man.. he asked me why do angels fly...my response.. because they can...he asked me again and again and my response.. each time and with confidence because they CAN. And after the fourth or fifth time he asked..he said because they are light.. my heart melted.. my legs weakened.. and I didnt know what to say.. I just stopped..all thoughts...as I tear up now as I say because they are light... I want to BE light.. I want to BE in the moment.. My Vision is tow Be with my daughter and not be thinking about what else I could be doing.. who else I could be calling..did I do this.. my VISION is to BE able to flow everday without any struggles.. My vision is to give without expecting something in return.. My VISION is to touch people...to encourage them to be themselves.. My VISION is to not care about what other people think.. or say... My VISION is to BE myself... the adorable little girl that made everyone happy.... I look at my daughter and she gets excited over the littlest things.. My VISION is to be like her.....
 
I hope this helps... It really isnt anything set in stone.,,like be on a beach somewhere... because I know I can do that..right now.. if I were.. Id probably be thinking about something else..or being somewhere else..
 
THIS is it.. I promise..
 
Great to hear sooo many others are reading through your website and are being touched in such a positive way!
 
My grandest appreciation for YOU!
Kelly

Dearest Kelly,  

I in full feeling slowly read your email to me, that is odd for me because I had studied speed reading and Am quite good at it, however I just let the SPIRIT(30) Guide ME(23) and He slowed ME(23) right down, a rare event indeed!  

I AM(47) not here going to speak in the least about solution, this I need not because of you my Dearest Kelly whose words are filled with Knowing.

You know so very much and little by little you share it with me and I in return Am here for you, for you my Dearest Kelly, whom I so LOVE(14) in PURITY(11) of Being!  

Please remember the following quote of mine: "When your inner voice of judgment ends True ENLIGHTENMENT(70) begins."

You are my Third Disciple of TRUTH(33) Kelly, really you are...  

Master Sage Joseph (M)

 

Hi there!!!

I really love "When your inner voice of judgment ends...True enlightment begins...ENLIGHTENMENT(70)"
 
Time to rest...Enjoyed every second reading through your material! Thank you for everything...
   
      Kelly

 

    Dearest Kelly,  

First I want to Thank You for your DESIRE(43) to help others by I putting some of your material Online, however you have done far more than most would so you need not do any more. Henceforth every email to and fro between you and I will remain exactly that, you and I.  The only exception is if we should talk about you becoming my Third Disciple of TRUTH(33), and possibly you accepting; this I would like to transpose Online, anything and everything else will be absolutely private.  You are doing so remarkably well Kelly that I do not want to see interferences change the WONDERFUL(37) course you are on.  In complete privacy we will also eliminate anything relative to presentation, it is just you expressing your deepest elements of the Person you are, and I guiding you throughout.  Absolutely confidential from here on in Kelly 

In the last email I mentioned speaking to me about what really makes you feel good about living and yourself, right now. This will be very useful in bridging your Vision and your present LIFE(15).  Please speak openly and freely, just let your Heart do the talking.  

In changing the names as you requested I did discover something that I felt I should share with you, you do LOVE(14) Larry very much, and your LOVE(14) for him is Greater and has always been Greater than the LOVE(14) of those within your emotional affairs.  This tells me there is a very good chance to regain your Marriage and bring it to a better place than where it was.  I`m not sure if here I spoke out of line for we are focusing on you Kelly, however I could not help but share this finding with you.  

You are so very Special to me Kelly, I wish I were there for you, but here is where it is at!   

In LOVE(14) of and for you Kelly,

Eugene (M)

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"TRUTH(33) is THE WAY(36): the only way!"

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